Call It

When I first saw this, I called shenanigans immediately. Then I came back to it about a week ago and decided to try it out.

I was proven wrong. This works.

Every time.

Productivity

I'm never more ready to take on the world than the days I'm solely listening to Regina. I had a few fits of dancing that I couldn't control today. In public.

Doesn't that sound like the complete opposite of me? ...I know.

But it happened.

Sinister of Hope

I continue to try and fix you even though you've gone. I thoroughly search your face in photos for a speck, a hint pointing to where and when it all began to go horribly wrong.

I always find nothing.

There's no reason for your smile to have been permanently erased. I could have fixed it. At least, I like to think that I might have been able to make a difference.

I'm not sad anymore though. Goodbye just came too soon. That, and the fact that my mind tends to wander at inappropriate times (such as tonight). And isn't it sad that I'm choosing my blog as a medium for this? We should just chalk it up to late night laziness.

Anyway, WMB, I miss you. I'm starting to think I always will.

Praise

The best compliment I have given out in the past few years or so happened to cross my lips tonight.

I told this person that they make my heart smile.

...And I meant it.

Change of Plans

The winds are a-changing, and I couldn't be more excited. I finally took a step back and prioritized my life not according to what is expected of me, but according to what I want to do, where I want to be and who I want to be.

No matter which way I spin it Travel is number one on my list. Not graduating, not love, not children. Just me, my thoughts and the world. It's time I realized that this is the time in my life to be selfish. There's nothing wrong with that. That's not to say that I won't graduate, find love or have children. I'm just going to do things slightly out of order.

First: I'll graduate. Included in that package is a trip with my mom and hopefully a summer trip with a few of you wonderful people.

Stage two of my very open-to-change plan is to find a job overseas teaching English (preferably in Asia). Some of these opportunities are so inclusive that they'll even pay my return flight and housing! If I can find something like that, then I can hopefully save 75% of my income over that first year of teaching. That could easily turn into $20,000.

THEN, I become a nomadic backpacker for one or two years and see the world. Who knows, I could find the place I would eventually want to settle down in, I could find the love of my life, etc... But what WILL happen is that I will gain the experience of a lifetime. This itch is one that I can't avoid scratching.

I've decided that I need to stop soul-searching. I'm looking for something that just isn't there, which is why it's such a cumbersome ordeal. I need to go out and live and develop that soul that I yearn for.

Here's to the end of looking back.

Fireworks beneath Eyelids

I had a dream last night that I married Michael Dyer. One of my weirder dreams indeed, and I know a few of you may get a chuckle out of it.

Dances with Cupcakes

Hi Loves. It has been far too long. I apologize, but I did have a great couple of days accompanied with pictures. 

*Note: Click on the photos to enlarge them!

Flagstaff has been invaded with Sunflowers. It was pretty windy today, so I went for a drive, Flagpole Sitta came on the radio and it almost seemed as if the flowers were all bobbing their little heads in tune. It was quite surreal actually. Calming too. 

Also, I went home on Thursday only to see my favorite boy on this planet. 

...If you managed to smile when reading this, then I consider my mission accomplished.